Just let me say thanks so much for all the input. It’s funny how things become so clear after someone else points it out! So taking everyone’s advise, I’m chillin’.
Fire Momma, I hope you haven’t left yet because I just wanted to let you know how much what you had to say meant. After reading your post, is was like a light turning on in my head! Ever since he was deployed, I’ve have put my personal life on hold! For some weird reason, I felt obligated to be holding some sort of vigil until his return. One of the reasons he was attracted to me was my independence. He didn’t want to feel guilty everytime he left, and wanted someone in his life who wasn’t going to sit home and pine for him.
Well, guess what!? I did just what he didn’t want and I wasn’t going to do!! So, just to let you know, I’m back on track. I have to admit though, the thing about an unnourished body and getting enough sleep was kind of spooky! I was thinking…Are you sure you don’t know me? How else would you know I’ve been surviving on massive quantities of coffee, cigarettes and 3-4 hours of sleep?! (ha-ha).
So to echo what Tazlina Girl said: That was so sweet of you to think of us!
Nerd on the fireline & Sammi, thanks so much for sharing your past experiences. You can’t imagine how comforting it was to find out I’m not the only one who ever had a less than perfect homecoming!
Mellie, your perspective on life and relationships is wonderful! How refreshing! Your comment about him bringing home his fire buddy so he could share his fire family with me just made me see that some of the things he does, (that I find really weird sometimes) very sweet. He’s not an overly expressive person (not into PDA’s and the such), and you made me realize this is his way of showing me how much he cares! It’s given me a whole new perspective on our relationship! THANKS!
YOU GALS ROCK!